i used to have urges for different things since childhood. But now from past few years as i am struggling with Bipolar disorder along with PTSD,Anxiety and Phobia my urges have found a place.now i know what i crave for and that is destroying my self , cutting open my veins and then drink the blood.

liking the smell and taste of blood goes back to my childhood as well. so far i haven’t harmed my self may be it’s the medications that are stopping me but the thoughts are always there and sometimes its hard to divert my thoughts.

it’s a non stop battle between you and your self the devil keeps on telling you to do it and you are say no no no…..


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