yesterday i was talking to a friend back in pakistan and told him that i am going through the roughest phase of my life, during discussion he told me that have i checked any expert of magic and spell binding person . As he was having such issue and then he find this person who is very expert and after talking to him he is doing fine.
i told him i do believe in supernatrual stuff but still after all its only Allah who does everything ,but as a drowning person needs even a straw to hold on.so i got the number from him.and today i called that person and told him about my situation.
he after some time told me that there isnt any magic but yeh there are a non musilm supernatural (JIN) affect on me who is blocking my luck. he gave me something to read (WAZIFA) and also to give (SADQA) for 7 consective weeks, he was sure that by the end of this year i will get to see positive affects inshallah. and my luck will turn into good one.
since then i am thinking if he is right or wrong but still i will give it a try and may be Allah will help me out and this will be the way out of my miseries and i will get a stable life,as from last 2 years my sickness as gotten worst and also my financial situations have gone worst as well.
from yesterday i have slipped again into severe depression while my new medicines are supposed to keep me in balance but i think it will take time to kick in or few weeks , so far i have burnt my hand few times and all i can smell is blood and want to bleed my self.
just keeping my fingers crossed that i wont do something stupid and time will change soon inshallah.