its been weeks since wrote a block well i was occupied in my life that i dint feel to write as when you are in depression and tress you cant be focus on the your product or writing was the case for me. but now i am trying my best to back on track and write something that inspires me i hope so at least.
so whats going on with me as well nothing usual still figure out what to do with my life ,how to deal with my mental illness as day by day its getting worst. fresh example is tonight i have talking 4 different strongest sleeping pills but still i am wide awake at its 0509 AM . i need some sleep as tomorrow is big day for me not that something is good happening ,but i need to call my case officer to extend my reservation at shelter house. as she was on leave so someone of her colleague but its only valid till tomorrow 12 o clock if i fail to get extension then will have to leave the room , so i am stressing out when she will be back as mostly she comes to work at 1400 and then if that happens then it would be hard for me as till then i have might have lost my room.
at 1400 i have doctor appointment so hope i will get back to her soon inshallah and i wont end up on road this time.
this life is getting very twisted and i am losing it bit my bit just praying ALLAH TO GIVE me strength and good health so that i can be independent and not dependent on govt aide….lts keep trying and pray for me thanks..